I will never forget this day. It changed my life in many ways. That morning I remember watching the news. I don’t remember the time or if anyone was around. It was just me. I was in disbelief. I was thinking to myself is this really happening. I didn’t realize what an impact it was on me, but look back and realize it impacted a lot of people. On this day, I mourn all people involved and all that are just hurt by what destruction human beings can do. This day was when many people joined in unity to help others and where many people sacrificed their lives to save another person’s life or just embraced people with kindness and love that were affected by the day. It changed me in a different way. The father of my son was in the Army National Guard and I remember the day that I found out he was being deployed. I never thought it would be 14 months without the person I loved and shared a son with. It was a hard time in my life, but luckily with family and friends being so supportive, I got through it. Although, the after effects of our lives changed forever. On that note, it’s not the subject I want to pursue here. I just want for people to mourn in their own ways on this day. It may be to say a prayer for all the people that lost their lives, lost their loved ones, and for the people that are still suffering the damage of seeing the horrific nature of that day. It’s a day for all our heroes that sacrificed their lives to save many others to be recognized for their courageous and unknowing ability to not care whether they were going to get hurt. They were there for a purpose. I will say a prayer and know that I will never forget this day.
I wasn’t going to post anything else because I wanted to recognize this day for everything it was, but I knew I had to touch base with you on my experiences. This is my journey to my self-discovery. Last night wasn’t bad. I had a few things happen. I heard a few noises like someone was moving stuff around, but that is the usual in my house. I also saw a shadow of what looked like maybe an arm going across my bathroom door. I again didn’t get much sleep, but my average is usually 4-5 hours, especially lately. I feel like I am going through another awakening, but definitely doesn’t compare to my first awakening. I woke up this morning and had to go to the bathroom. When I came back to my bed and laid there for a few minutes, I turned to the other side to look at my clock and it was 4:44. My angels are here. Yes. I believe in angels. I will touch base on that as well. I know when my angels give me a sign that they are here is when I see triple numbers. It’s not always that I see it on a clock, sometimes it’s signs on roads or license plates or on tv. It doesn’t matter where; I just see them. I am also a believer that there are no coincidences. I also do something that people would find very strange when my angels visit. When I do it, I would rather not anyone see me because I probably look very weird and awkward. Whether my eyes are closed or open, my eyes start to blink at a rapid rate. It’s mostly when my eyes are open, that I think people would think I have an eye disorder or some type of disorder. Just thinking about it, makes me laugh inside. I might actually motivate myself to actually look in the mirror next time when it’s happening and probably get a burst of laughter out of it. I don’t think about it when I am in the moment because it’s such a beautiful sign of relief when it happens. Plus, I don’t even know if I would see it if I looked in the mirror, I am part Asian and have bad eyes.
I am sorry if I don’t make sense at times, I think my lack of sleep is giving me brain fog or brain farts as I call it. My average of 4-5 hours a night and some nights with none or a few hours catch up to me. I can be ditzy at times. Ask our team members, they all know me well with that one. I do go off the subject because of my brain fog. I am glad you all can’t see me because I think I just spaced out for 2-3 minutes. I figured that I was going to put my whole, authentic self in my blogs, so here I am.
Last night of actually not having too much happen, besides my loving angels visiting me, I did get some experiences a few nights ago. I was woken up by a woman’s voice. I couldn’t make out what she said. It was a sentence. But it woke me up very abruptly as I do when something visits me. As soon as I heard it, I can say I was a little startled. I am not always clairaudient. It comes and goes. After I heard her and was lying in bed for a couple of minutes, I heard a loud bang from the corner of my room. I am not sure if it was a phantom bang for me to only hear. My fiancé was sleeping soundly and didn’t wake to hear it. It certainly was loud enough to my levels to think someone would be woken by it. But obviously it wasn’t for him or anyone else. I have had those phantom knocks before. Someone was definitely trying to get my attention. I believe it was her. Not only did I hear those things, but the night or two before that, I got a flash imagery picture of a lady. For some reason now that is how I see them. It wasn’t always like that. Maybe the Lord thinks I need a break. I saw a lady with long dark hair and I believe she was of Native American descent. Weirdly enough, I had a conversation with someone about the Native American lady that our neighbors have seen and that the person I was talking with seen as well. I find it very amazing because our family has a bond with Native American culture. I never knew why until later into my early adult years. That is for a later blog. So now I am stuck with the frustration. This is where I talk to you about the why’s and the what’s. What does she want? Why can’t I hear her or figure out what she wants. I don’t understand. Do I have more blockages to clear to fully get those answers or is my gifts just going to be like this? I have a long road ahead of me then. This is where my self-discovery starts. I mean it has started for a while now, but I feel I am growing and learning all the time. These damn moon shifts have been intense. I know a lot of people are feeling them. Trust yourself and take care of yourself. Self-care is very important, especially these times with all the universal shifts people are feeling. Some people are not aware of what is going on either.
I know I have a little of all clairvoyance, clairaudience, clairsentience, and claircognizance, and am empathic but will they ever allow me to reach my full potential to help the dead and the living. We will see. I have my struggles. Me being an empath, makes it very hard for me to be around people or watch movies with strong emotions tied to it. I have learned to control it to a certain level, but it’s not always controllable for me. Trying to stop myself from ugly crying in a movie is not the easiest, especially when people are around. In these times of dealing with my abilities or lack of; is when I really need to nurture my soul and take care of myself. I don’t associate with a lot of people. I feel that they can never understand me or where I am coming from. I feel like I am from another planet sometimes. Some of my team members would think the same knowing my little fascination I have with aliens. These blogs that I am sharing is for my self-discovery but also to inspire people too. If you are going through things and feel alone, share them with a trusted soul. You know who they are. If you don’t and need to talk, I am here. I would love to hear people’s stories whether paranormal or not. Maybe it’s your struggles with yourself that you need to get out or just have someone to listen to you. Take the time for yourself. You are loved and you deserve respect, love, and nurturing. Comment if you would like and if you would like to talk personally, I will send my email. Thank you for taking the time to read. God bless and light and love to all!!